I was in a very complicated mood at that time. I wrote in the novel about Rightists that she had a strange smile. I came home that day and saw my lover say that she was a rightist. Even with this strange smile, I didn’t know what I was laughing at.
I think of Jin Shengtan who wrote a letter to kill a headache just before his execution, but Jin Shengtan said that it was not reliable. In his letter to his son, Jin Shengtan said that the eldest son knew the taste of peanut bean curd and chewing ham. People said that it was even more unreliable. I didn’t believe that before my execution, how could I make such a joke? Now I believe that this is a real person. When it is extremely acceptable, Lu Xun said that Jin Shengtan turned the butcher into a cruel smile. Lu Xun had never been killed too much and had never been a rightist. He had no such experience.
On the other hand, I sincerely believe that I made a mistake, was a crime and needed to be reformed. I put my work place in Shaling, Zhangjiakou. Before I left home, my wife’s unit was engaged in militarization and received military training. She couldn’t come back to see me off. I left a note for me for five years. When I got back after reforming, I picked up my luggage and took the train.
Fortunately, unfortunately, I, a rightist, am very lucky and didn’t suffer much. My unit is a regional agricultural department. In the research, many technicians and technicians know the knowledge points. I introduced our situation at the level of cadres and agricultural workers’ team leaders. At the same time, I put it here and several other people didn’t announce our problems in front of the workers. Many agricultural workers, that is, farmers, didn’t know what we were here. Chairman Mao told us to exercise, so we were not discriminated against.
Of course, it’s tiring to do farm work at the beginning. It’s really choking to do such heavy work as scraping frozen manure from a pigsty. Only then did I realize the meaning of this sentence that labor is a heavy burden, but I gritted my teeth and survived. At that time, I wanted to die one step at a time. I had to do most of the farm work desperately, and my strength also increased. I was able to carry 17 kilograms of grain, walk steadily on the ground and jump as steeply as 45 degrees. Later, I was relatively fixed in the garden. The most common job was to spray Bordeaux liquid copper sulfate and add stones to the trees. Grey mixed with appropriate amount of water is Bordeaux liquid, which is light blue and fine. It is beautiful to spray Bordeaux liquid to prevent tree diseases. It is a meticulous job to spray Bordeaux liquid all the year round. It can’t be sprayed too little, too little and too much. The leaves can’t hang up, and many workers have to spray it on the back of their leaves. So most of the workers who spray Bordeaux liquid fell on my head. I became an expert at spraying Bordeaux liquid, and several of my white shirts turned light blue.
We agricultural workers work together, eat and live together, sleep next to each other in the bed at night, and sleep on a big kang. The agricultural workers are on the pillow. I said something from my heart and didn’t care. Only then did I observe the farmers more closely and know what farmers are like in rural China, China, which is very good for me to write my attitude towards life after I established it.
We’re going to have cultural activities here. Many workers in Shanxi Bangzhong Road will sing a few words. I’m going to make up their faces to sing. All of them are powder makeup, goose eggs, rouge, black pot, smoke and eyebrows. I’ll change them into drama paints. This is much more beautiful than powder makeup. My face is cleaner than that of Zhangjiakou professional troupe, Heishan West Bang, and I pay attention to the fire in Shalingbao Town during the Spring Festival. Several young women workers are going to run dry boats. I’m wearing light makeup to make them look like jade and stir up a few castles.
Terrace set
The villagers here haven’t seen the scenery. We guided a carpenter to finish the play. I have to catch a train back to Beijing. I got off the bus without even taking off my makeup.
At the end of 1959, several of us were appraised, and some cadres and workers’ leaders agreed that Lao Wang did not hide and rape the masses, but his humanity was good. It was too soon for the leaders to take off the right hat. Let’s wait for another year, so that in 1996, after summing up my thoughts, the leaders announced that they would take off the right hat and end their work, and temporarily take over the unit to assist the workers.
My work is mainly painting. I have participated in regional agricultural exhibitions. Artists paste a large picture of pine cranes on the exhibition board. The color is quaint. A teacher in the art secondary school here once specially brought it with him to observe how the super waves in the super wave exhibition hall I arranged in the park are invisible. So I drew compasses for all kinds of production surfaces of agriculture, forestry, animal husbandry and fishery, dipped in white powder, and drew circles and circles of concentric circles. My masterpiece is to draw a set of China potato maps. This is for me.
This unit potato research is located in Guyuan, and what is located in Guyuan? Guyuan is located in the dam. It is a year of heavy snow in the alpine region. The snow outside the west gate of Guyuan is as high as the city wall. Potatoes are in the alpine region. When planted in the south, they will degenerate. It is necessary to plant them in the dam. Guyuan is a potato seed research base in Yingguo. Of course, there are hundreds of kinds of potatoes planted here. I bought a paper-colored pen in Zhangjiakou, and I bought two books of essays from Xinhua Store in Shaling. It is also strange that I bought these kinds in Xinhua Store in Shaling.
I’m studying potatoes and drawing maps. It’s really a fairy. Without leadership, I won’t be the only one who cares about myself. At this time, it’s potato flowers. Every day, I wade through the dew to pick some flowers in the experimental field and put them in a glass to draw pictures of them. I once wrote a long poem to my friends in Beijing to describe my life poems. I have forgotten two sentences.
Sit on a cluster of flowers
Mu Jiong-hu
Draw potato leaves in the afternoon. When the potatoes are getting cold, draw potato pieces. Draw a potato and cut it to draw a profile. When a potato is finished, the potato pieces will be placed again. So I buried it in the cow dung fire and baked it. I dare say that I have eaten so many kinds of potatoes like me.
Guyuan is an isolated city, which is a military platform. Crimes committed by ministers in Qing Dynasty are often sent to the military platform by the emperor’s instructions. This punishment is lighter than banishment, which is called effectiveness. Actually, the minister is not going to stay in Zhangjiakou and spend money to hire a person to fill the position in the military platform. So I drew a seal on the title page of Zhai Essay.
Effective military platform
Painting during the day depends on how many I bring at night.
At the beginning of 1996, I was transferred back to Beijing and retired as a screenwriter in Beijing Peking Opera Troupe.
Taking off the hat of the Rightists does not mean that they are not Rightists. During the Cultural Revolution, people were transferred to other places. I wrote a circumstantial material, and comrades in the personnel department added comments to the material.
This person is a reference for the situation of the right-wing who has taken off his hat.
I am disgusted with the Rightists who took off their hats, and I am also disgusted with this man, who is not much different from the criminals. I don’t know where our personnel cadres come from.
During the Cultural Revolution, I was one of the first people in the unit to be arrested for criminal record.
During the Cultural Revolution, post me posters with the title
Old Rightists’ New Performance
I have been engaged in model operas for some time, and Jiang Qing seems to appreciate me very much, so suddenly one day I announced that Wang Zengqi was controllable, mainly because, of course, I was a rightist who was controlling pressure and creating the taste.
I didn’t say goodbye to the Rightists until 1979, when the overwhelming majority of the Rightists in China were rehabilitated. I went to the unit to collect materials and thanked the comrades who handled my project. You have done a lot of work to rehabilitate my problem. Thank you, comrades. Don’t talk about it for 20 years.
People ask me how you have come over these years. They probably think that my mental state is good and strange. They want to know what strength I came over with. I answer.
adapt/accommodate oneself to different circumstances
Comrade Ding Ling once said that she was resigned to working in the Great Northern Wilderness from being classified as a rightist. I think this is too bitter. It’s easier to take things as they are. Of course, it’s not the case. It’s also a necessity to be uneasy. So what? Now that I don’t want some Beijingers to say that it’s fun to fool myself, of course, but it’s not over.
Happy-go-lucky is not a good state of mind, which will have a negative impact on the national cohesion. This state of mind will produce history. Because of the influence of Laozi and Zhuangzi’s thought, I am not a person with resistance, but more importantly, it is an objective encounter with environmental life, especially the political environment. Because China’s knowledge is good, most of the generation who were beaten to the right are still working hard. First, they must do something to prove their value. Second, they have no feelings for giving birth to me and raising my old country, but they must recover. I’m afraid it’s difficult for them to restore their naive enthusiasm when they were young. They are pessimistic about the world and see through the reality. They are more or less alienated and sad, and their hearts are always fragile.
There’s nothing you can do about it.
Can you be careless when you are in politics?
January 31, 1991
1 Editor’s Note English FairPlay transliteration translated it into Uppercale sports competition during the May 4th New Culture Movement. Other competitive terms mean fair competition. Lu Xun once wrote an article on Uppercale should go slow.
Have fun
Comrade Sun Li said that writing is his best rest. It is such a person’s most fulfilling time and happiest time to gaze at it for a long time. When I was thinking of an article, my children said that I was rolling my eyes and writing happily. People were in a sweet and excited mood, but they were not keen at ordinary times. At this time, although it was not easy for the south king to write, they felt that the knife was good, but they hesitated to say to themselves that it was really fun for you to be young. It is beyond outsiders’s imagination, but one can’t write from early to late, and then it will become a writing machine. It is always necessary to find something
When I was young, I loved singing opera. At first, I sang Qingyi Meipai, and later I changed to Yu Pai, a senior student. After singing Kunqu opera and playing the flute for a while, I came to the troupe and stopped singing opera and playing the flute. Because many professional celebrities in the troupe played in front of them, it was really a trick to teach others how to play, but they could also play my flute. I was full of flutes, but I couldn’t play it again because my teeth were falling out one after another.
Over the years, I have been interested in writing, calligraphy, painting and cooking.
The conclusion is that the general Rightists should release rural labor.
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